The Complicated Nature of Grief

I am nearing the year and a half mark of widowhood. You’d think I’d have this grief thing figured out by now, but frequently, I get a jarring reminder that I’m still a toddler in this journey of loss. Nebulous Sadness One day last week, I texted my daughter and said, “I’m weepy today, for […]

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After the Rain

As I watch raindrops slide down my window and drench the yard, my heart goes out to a family who bid farewell to a loved one this week. Funerals are never easy, but the dreariness of a rainy day adds another dimension. Maybe the sky is weeping over the loss of this one who loved […]

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Seaside Reflections

Last week, I had the joy of indulging in a personal retreat, a time of respite self-care. I stepped aside from life’s demands, normal routines, and the grief process. I ceased decluttering my home and focused on decluttering my mind. Lists, boxes, and chores were left behind as I rested, reflected, refreshed, and rebooted. Following […]

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Rest, Reflect, Reboot

When I opened my laptop this week, I was greeted by a black screen with not even a brief flash of light or sound of whirring fan. I tried several different things, but my laptop remained silent and dark. For months, I set aside this week for a personal writing retreat. As I loaded bags […]

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Why Letting Go is Hard

Last week, my son and I climbed up the attic stairs in search of a few specific boxes. I hadn’t been in the attic for years and was surprised by all that is there: a playpen that is now too dirty to ever be used again, plastic boxes of unknown items, toys strewn willy-nilly with […]

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Beauty in the Background

As I begin this post, the day is dreary. Rain spatters the window and a steady breeze rustles foliage. If I allow it, the damp dreariness could cast a dark shadow over my mood. But I won’t let this happen, because, in the background, I see glistening green grass. I see beauty. Enjoy Beauty Now […]

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The Clinginess of Grief

Years ago, when my mother was alive and still living in my childhood home, the swimming pool stayed covered one summer while she was in and out of the hospital. The next year, I knew it needed to be uncovered. I expected it to be a mess, and it was. As I struggled to remove […]

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Life’s Unpredictable Seasons

March is usually the month with the most unpredictable weather. While wind is a given, temperatures are erratic. March teases us with a warm and sunny day followed by a return to cold and dreary. A chilly morning gives way to a hot afternoon, or a warm start to the day ends with blustery cold. […]

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